The Circus Comes To Paterson
Once they set up Clyde
Beatty’s Big Top
at the foot of Sandy Hill,
in the empty lot
where projects used to rise
in long barracks rows,
housing the soldiers and
their wives after the war,
and then struggling families
like mine,
until they finally knocked
them down,
flattened them like furrows
ploughed up for just a few
seasons
to give us all a chance to
sow a future.
And there it was: our
future,
in a house, with an alleyway
and a garden,
on Summer Street, ripeness
setting in, I guess,
because when the circus came
our parents were giddy too,
as we joined the crowd in
the bleachers,
sitting in the backs of flat
beds,
and pulled in a circle
like a wagon train at chow
time.
And we were just like
pioneers sitting there,
doing something we’d never
done,
a circus right in our
living room,
that’s what it felt like
until the elephants came out
one of them broke ranks,
dragging the trainer with
her,
the poor guy dangling like
an earring
from the hook he held to the
side of her head.
That elephant’s berserk!, someone screamed,
and we screamed too when she
charged at the trucks,
as people fled up the seats
and dropped off the back.
We were paralyzed, which
turned out to be all right
because she wasn’t
interested in us at all,
she was more intent on the
freedom she saw
through an opening in the
canvas
and was gone before we had
that figured out.
The rest is hearsay.
Stories about her lurking
behind the drugstore,
so that Doc nearly had a heart
attack,
when he went to see why his
dog
was barking so loud, of how
she wedged herself between
the shoemaker’s house and garage,
bending the aluminum siding,
as she
eased back out, how she reared up
and
stamped a footprint in the sidewalk,
before turning tail and
running past our house,
so Ralph next door thought
he was
going crazy, when he looked up
from the
paper, and she flew by
like a bat
out of hell.
They caught her way up high
on the hill,
locked her in the back of a
tractor trailer,
but the circus that day was
done for,
there was no going back.
They
worked her too hard,
my mother said
to my Dad.
This
is what happens .
Meanwhile I stroked the
garage’s new curved edges
where her anger had made its
mark,
watching the girls take
turns
stamping the sidewalk as
hard as they could
inside the ring of her
footprint.